addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
lamp post 54
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
tagboard ;
guestbook
(because we never treasure the happier times in life enough)
friday- damn shiok run with pam the ham (many motorcyclists horned at her and her flesh..tsktsk)
saturday- gift from heaven in the form of help for math. then prissy's "surprise" birthday dinner! surprise pink helium balloon, surprise pinata, surprise presents..with the damn good food and kueh kueh. (aka codeword for birthday cake, as mummy calls it.. rotfl.. ) things i ate included a tiny ring of jalepeno pepper, my favourite pink pickles and lots of cake.. was so high that we went home for the "after-party party" in the birthday girl's room. pen went to bed early in prep for ahm while pam pris and i did retarded things. i will miss these days... :( family outings are ze best.
sunday- after a long long car ride with lots of detours, finally got to feel the WIND. max of 39.9kph (don't laugh..that's the highest i've gone over the past 9 weeks..so don't laugh..) damn shiok (x 10000). after 1.5hrs i was aching like crap and headwind was killing me..had to keep hiding behind pam.. they've built some new tarmac pavement along the road. everything looks different. hard to accept and remember that the last time i was there was more than 2mths ago. the sights, the sounds.... i'd like to think that you were there, somewhere in the wind that was blowing against my face .. in the arvo the 3 small malay boys made my day when they scored highest in class for the cloze passage. (7, 8 and 8 upon 10). the look of achievement and joy on their faces.... i'll never. ever. forget.
another guy passed away at the finish line of ahm. i hate. death. i hate it. whether in the form of pictures/ videos related to abortion during GP, or hearing about people getting run down by buses, or people having sudden cardiac arrest.. i don't care i hate it. death is cruel. death is . something i'll never come to terms with.
today i am super duper tired. a lot of work. my brain is dead. i failed math (again). my stomach is bursting from a lot of junk i just ate. stress makes you do things you'll regret.
promos are so close...
RARR i feel like throwing up :( i am super tired.